A Lone Rider's Wish

It's always too hard to say about your future. And there are a lot of people who hate to talk about future. But certainly I'm not one of them. Here's my visualization of my future when I'll be 50!!!

First of all I'd like to be free. Free like a wild bird. I would like to be without any duty, responsibility. I would be a person without any friends, without any spouse, without any partner, without any relation, without any enemy. You may think I am out of my mind. But actually I've always longed for freedom. And I think I will only be able to taste true freedom when I am alone, lonely, desolate and have deserted everybody.

If the above words have sounded hypothetical then just hear what it will look like. I think I will end up living in a small apartment in Dhaka. There may be one or two rooms in it apart from kitchen & bathroom [hey no one can live without them]. One thing for sure all the rooms will be very much haphazard. Because I am not one of those who like to decorate their houses.There will be two chairs in that apartment. One for me and one for rare guests. There won't be any phone connection but there will be a PC for email purpose. It will also be used for listening to music. And the most important thing that will be in my apartment that would be lots & lots & lots of books& novels. I've already started collecting them. And if you ask what will I do all the day. I will just read books all the time.

So those are my dreams or wish for myself for the very far future. I don’t know if I’m going to make it or not, whether I’ll stand up to it or not. But certainly right now this idea seems very much fascinating and amusing to me and I would not waste any chance to make it come true.

E.H.R.